22 July 2015

A very useful kind of heartbreak

This word heartbreak sounds unbelievably romantic.
Well it is not.

Technically it's ugly. I've never been into any kind of situation where I can use this world in any possible way before today. My heartbreak wasn't romantic, it was humiliating and irritating. And it was kind of what I really needed.

My heart got broken by a few human beings gathered together to tell me all the things I do wrong, everything I can't do, everything I should stop doing etc. Humiliation is vvvv bad. Pushing someone down and if they don't go down then crushing them down is lso vvvv bad. Doing bad things to people also cause heartbreaks. 

Well after a broken heart, a head full of plans, bad ideas about life and a lot of poetry in my journal, I'm doing very well. I felt crushed and sad for a moment but when you realize you have nothing to lose, you can't be worried anymore. This is what makes world crazy genius people (I hope I'm one of them one day) 

I write good things after bad accidents. 

We don't want to belong to the plains anymore. Scratching our backs till they bleed and make room for wings and seek shelter in the skies. Like eagles, we fly away high. Even our shadows don't reach the land because we're rare for dust now.
I just think it should be next Lorde lyric.

When you get your heart broken and a very sad head, do something good to yourself. Be a star or something. That is what I'm going to do. It's too dark and being a star is my last option. I'll make sure to be happy and creative and I'll love my blog even more. 

Typing this post was another kind of hard business. You can't go on telling people how hard life is and how sad you are but OH WAIT YOU DO IT IS 2015 AND WE'RE LIVING IN A WEIRD CENTARY AND YOU WRITE ABOUT ANYTHING ON BLOG.

I hope you're doing great my people.


9 comments:

  1. Aww, is this family stuff? Are you trying to figure out what you want to do 'in life'? I mean, really.. don't you just hate that question. I always resented family or people that I hadn't seen in a long time when they asked what I was doing for work. Like somehow what I do at work defines who I am. Although I get why people ask.. it's the norm. Hope you didn't take it to heart too too much.

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  2. Aw I'm sorry hear that you're going through heartbreak. I hope that everything gets better :)

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  3. Being heart broken back then made me realized a lot of things: I can live without him, the pain goes away as time goes and I can still be happy and find who I was again

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  4. We seriously can write about anything on our blogs. Writing about how sad you are is therapeutic in a way, until it's not. Anyway, sometimes critique can be good as long as you don't lose self confidence and you can filter out what's untrue. Every experience is another piece of knowledge in life, so I guess this really was a useful kind of heartbreak.

    -M
    The Life of Little Me

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  5. Wait wait wait.... This is your blog Areeba. There are no rules or regulations when it comes to writing on your blog. It's your creative outlet and you can say whatever you please. Don't you ever for one second censor yourself because you think it is breaking the blog rules.

    As for whoever brought your self esteem down and crushed you, ignore it. Easier said than done, I know. Just remember that there is always someone out there that has to be the pessimistic one. A joy sucker as I call it. Those people aren't worth your time. If it's a family member, my advice to you about that is let it roll right off your back and to never come to those people ever again with anything. Don't give them the ammunition to belittle you ever again. Like Tay Swift says..... HATERS GONNA HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!!

    Chin up pretty girl. Quit being sad!!

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  6. I am so sorry to hear that this happened, but at the same time I often find that's it's the ugliness in life that makes us better, more beautiful people. Rising out of a heartbreak is like a turning point - you start to feel yourself grow inch by inch. So I wish you happiness and I hope you manage to flee the toxicity!

    http://aroseisinbloom.blogspot.com/

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  7. Sorry to hear that this happened - Being heartbroken romantic or not isnt easy. Big hugs!

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  8. So sorry Areeba! I really hope you feel allot better. Those people will always be there.. people who tell you everything to crush you but there are those that tell you those things to help you. Although you can decide that by how they told you.
    your poem is beautiful btw :) - I love the ending of this post.. how you threw some positivity in this post while it's something unhappy.
    Jade x

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