3 September 2014

Not afraid to be 17

16 August, 2014. I turned 17 years old. Teenage years are so weird. One moment you're being called a big kid that should do that etcetera etcetera work and the other moment you're being called that you should know your limits because you're still too small, yes just a small kid. You just have no clear idea what to do. Which is, honestly, my least favorite part about these magical yet rough years. But we keep moving towards growing up game.

For me, being 13 was awkward, I had no idea how to do this growing up stuff. Being 14 was weird, things were complicated. 15 was better in a way. But 16 was THE WORST and to get this clear, 16 is usually NOT the sweet sixteen. And now, here I am at 17. I had to choose whether it could be Silly Seventeen or Superb Seventeen for me. And I have decided it to be Superb Seventeen. Give me a moment to explain this to you.
I love writing. I think I can make a pretty good career in this. I usually keep wearing a crossbody which holds my tablet, my journal, a pen and my lipbalm during travels or going out. Because in my mind, I am a journalist or an amateur writer who is in search of new stories and ideas. My folks keep helping me in this which I highly appreciate. But there are moments when I talk to people on something and they simply ignore my opinions or my further questions on a given topic because according to them, I'm just a silly teenager who doesn't know much about life or life experiences. Sometimes it's a clear rejection of my opinion or idea. Which, obviously, is painful. This is where I chose to be Superb Seventeen. I'm going to fight for my opinion. Last week, I had a conversation with my uncle about self esteem. According to me, having self esteem is important. It gives you power to love yourself for what you are & take stands and make decisions on your own. But according to my uncle, people with high self esteem are vain. And that's where our opinions collided. I told him that this thought of him was wrong. Self esteem is not a selfish term, I believe that. And then this quote did the rest of the work: “Falling in love with yourself first doesn’t make you vain or selfish, it makes you indestructible.” And I cleared him that self esteem and self obsession are two different words. We ended this discussion pretty gently. But I was glad that I delivered him my thoughts and opinion pretty well without being afraid of what if he rejects my opinion or tell me I am the one who's wrong. But I did it and it was my little success with talking to people. I want to do this more and more. I want to discuss more stuff to people, listen to what they say and tell them what I think. And then write about it, or blog about it. And remember that no matter what anyone says about my writing pieces or the poems that don't rhyme perfectly, I'm going to do whatever I can. I've written some short stories too which I will write about soon on blog. One is about a blogger that I am MOST excited to present. Till then, I'd happily concentrate on being this Superb Seventeen.

7 comments:

  1. You are a WOMAN not a child in my eyes and you are very intelligent, you have great writing and communication skills, far more sophisticated than blogs I read from people miles older than you, I hope you become a success as I will be supporting you every step of the way xxx


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  2. Way to go! That is such a mature goal to have! We need more motivated girls like yourself in today's world

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  3. I love that quote about being indestructible.
    I'm glad you chose the Superb Seventeen. =0) And I can't wait to read your short stories.

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  4. So proud of you!! Even still at 24 it's hard for me to stick up for myself and fearlessly say what's truly on my mind. So good for you, keep doing it dear!

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  5. I am so proud of you Areeba. It's too hard to stick to Superb Seventeen but it's not impossible. Things we do at our teenage stay with us kind of forever. WAYYY to go!!!

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  6. I love that quote and happy belated birthday to a fellow August born!

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  7. Good job on the discussion with your uncle. For a seventeen year old, you seem to know some pretty important things. Your uncle probably went home and thought about that conversation again... whereas if you hadn't stood up for your opinion he wouldn't have given it another thought. I am a big supporter in saying what you feel especially when you feel strongly about it. There are times when I have been too afraid to say how I'm really feeling and I think I have always regretted. 16 was a tough age for me too. But for other reasons- boyfriend stuff. Honestly, i think you're on the right path to adulthood. I knew a lot of 17 year olds that aren't nearly as wise and smart as you or your sister.

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