22 May 2013

Nothing's well


While joining Blog Challenge for May , I promised myself to write given topics. But today I am not feeling well. Maybe the worst I've ever had. I don't know if my feelings can come out in words. If you are an old reader , you know that I suffer Perioral Dermatitis everyday , every minute of my life. Today was one of the day that I thought what should I do? Cry or pray?
Last night , it turned so bad. I wasn't feeling good so mum said don't go to school tomorrow. I thought it is just casual. In the dawn pray, my chin and lips started swelling. I ignored ( My mistake)
While in school , my face started looking worse. Everybody started asking what is happening. It was so hot in there and I wasn't able to speak properly because of swelling. I washed my face many times but it was no good. Unfortunately , my lip balm got melted. When I opened it , it fell off. Then it was of no use. I felt dizziness. Until the last period , my dermatitis was on it's peak. I was looking awkward and everybody was staring at me like I was dropped from outer space. The sympathy and pity in their eyes killed me. I was behaving like such bad temper. In the end , I got my van and reached home.
When I came inside , I called mum and then I cried a lot. Not just cried , I shouted , cursed myself , told her I would suicide and leave this world. What could she do? She is now going to Karachi for my medicines. I found no cure for Perioral Dermatitis. I am not eating spices , have left everything which is not allowed in this problem. It got better last days but it's again on it's worst. I feel embarrassment every time I see the mirror. Or whenever anyone ask what has happened to me face, why is this so swelled and pink? It hurts but I can't blame them. It's very unusual thing for people here.
I cried while writing this post but by writing this , maybe someone who is known with this would tell me something to cure. I'll be thankful if I get any place in your wishes
and prayers.






12 comments:

  1. I have never heard of this disease, but reading your blog made me realize that you're a wonderful girl :) Don't let other people get through to you, stay positive and enjoy things you love :)

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  2. I don't know anything about this disease but I'm sorry you're suffering, Aree. I hope you feel better soon.

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  3. Coming from lovely blog hop.
    new follower via GFC.

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  4. i havent heard of this disease before and i really feel bad on your suffering. I pray for God's Grace to pour over you and sustain you from what ever struggles your going thru. I pray you dont give up easily and put your trust in the Lord

    Delightful Ideas

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  5. Areeba,
    My son has severe eczema, and when he was a baby, he had it all over his body from head to toe. People would stare and we would hear whispers. Some people thought he had been burnt, but no - it was just severe eczema. I have done lots of research on many types of dermatitis, and there is one story that may be of help to you. I will email you the link. =0) Keep your head up, girl. You're a shining star!
    ~Kim

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  6. That's very unfortunate. We've been planning to go to Makkah for some time, and when I get there, I'll pray for you in Kabba. I've been reading your blog for a while, and you are such a lively spirit. Hope you get better soon and I will definitely pray for you. Take care.

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  7. You are in my thoughts & prayers - I hope you feel better soon.
    I found you on the "I love my post" blog hop & I am your newest GFC follower - this is my blog if you wanted to follow back: godsgrowinggarden.com
    Thanks
    Angie

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  8. I am sorry to read about the problem you are having Aree. I will definitely pray for you and hope you will be fine soon. You are a beautiful girl. Take care and my best wishes to you.

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  9. Writing about your feelings is good. Please always write when you feel so low because writing is a saviour.

    You are always in my thoughts. I really hope you are feeling much better.
    Don't be harsh on yourself about this, you will find the solution.

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  10. Oh you poor dear girl. Please know that we are all thinking of you and that you are never alone. Everyone has problems that feel overwhelming and can make you feel there is no way to solve. But hang in there and know that you will get through it and that you are stronger than you think.
    -Jamie
    ChatterBlossom

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  11. I am so sorry about this. I wish I could help in some way but I have never known anyone with PD. I have done some quick research on it and it seems stopping the use of certain things does help, but I guess that hasn't been enough for you. I really wish I could help more.

    xo Joana
    Grow In Fashion

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