13 February 2016

a never happy girl's guide to happiness


This post is going to be super motivational.

Let me introduce myself, a kind of introduction I didn't put on the about me page:
I'm usually unhappy with things, sometimes just in my mind, sometimes publicly. Complaining, complaining, complaining. I'm the kind of kid that rolls her eyes and makes remarks on things that get me into good troubles, v frequently. Not v nice, I know but this is how I am.

What is happiness? I think it's a v pleasant feeling that fixes everything. 

At first, I thought happiness can only come to you. Something you can't create, it has to be showered by god, you just gotta wait. But my theory went wrong at so many times that I had to fix it. Happiness can be created. I had read somewhere that making happy lists can help, a good sleep routine can help, controlled hormones can help but I never tried that. 

And I am v happy to announce that I've I found my secret/magical way to happiness.
I didn't sleep early and woke up early. I didn't make lists of anything and I absolutely have no control over hormonal changes & emotions. I just am trying to be more grateful and it's really working. 

Being grateful of all the little things is all you need to start doing more, I'm trying my best to do so. Just looking at my plants or staring at the peaceful blue sky is so soothing I instantly feel happy. It tickles, it makes me feel better and content. I had never thought being content would be the biggest blessing. I'm on a hunt for little blessings and make myself familiar with all the good things I'm surrounded with and remembering little miracles from my everyday life: like my broken charger started working and I was like DUDE YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY WHEN YOU'RE NOT BROKEN. This kind of silly little stuff. 

I still am complaining about things a lot, still making the same mistakes, still breaking rules I'm supposed to maintain but there's a difference, it might not be big enough but it is and I'm really glad that I'm finally working on something that makes me feel not just happy but content.


I just hope you feel happy with what you have, with all you have.

How you guys have been doing? How is life?

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10 February 2016

Why we wear what we wear

Stephanie asked me to write this post. Here I come with an official ootd post after weeks.

I'm wearing a typical outfit for Pakistani women. Layering is our specialty. Mainly, covering. This is what we do, we cover. We do fashion & styling but our main object is to cover. Covered in fashion, covered in bling bling, covered with freedom. This is the way fashion works according to my religion and culture and no, it's not suffocating. 

I grew up watching women around me dressed like the way I do. It's always shawls or scarves or dupattas around our heads & bodies, and our mothers gracefully wrapped in larger shawls. It's a symbol for respect for our womenhood. It's a product of Islam and Pakistani culture. 

This is mainly what I wear on most days. Just minus the turquoise upper cos I prefer less vibrant colors. I have a theory about vibrant colors, they don't suite me, I have a temper that doesn't go well with brightest colors. I like soft colors or darker shades of almost everything. White is saintly, I like wearing this color but I'm a person who get their cloths into trouble. Paint, mud (I keep plants) and grass in my case. White is a luxury or a treat yo self for me if casual. 



What's your why we wear what we wear story?
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9 February 2016

Newest nail color crush ft Kylie Jenner vibes

Nudes are my newest fave shades, they come with the perks of 
-being internet famous
-being matched with my to be gothic-minimalistic-tumblr-art kid lifestyle
 -giving away Kylie Jenner vibes

I found this nail color when I was out with my fam girls, each of us bursting with the happiness of being able to get ourselves a girls' walk round the city (WE WERE JUST A BUNCH OF FAMILY KIDS) We walked into a small make up shop & I found this unknown nail color which looked surprisingly good. I bought it, it's a big moment because make up is the last thing I buy from my v own money. I either get it for free or snatch it away from women in family. I've a feeling this post is turning slightly more about my family than I planned to.

Love love love the shade, I feel like I can buy 3 more bottles of the same nail color.

I'm not a big big big fan of Jenner, the three seasons of Keeping Up With The Kardashians freaked me out, but now their style & aesthetics are on point. This nail color reminds me of Kylie Jenner, so it's such an inspiring thing to look at my nails and be ready to do something such as moving my ass and work on a style I can actually stick to.

Another picture because I love the way these pictures have turned out.


Have you gotten any make up crush lately?
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5 February 2016

#ohjournaletc - February


#ojournletc started as 2016's first ever creative project with the collaboration of my friend Hawwa and the first month of it went FAB! Not just because I got to make pretty art on my journal for it but because it created a sense of community: youth of web made art together and it was the BEST. FEELING. EVER.

If you don't know what it is:

#OhJournalEtc is a creative art journalling prompts project. In collaboration with Hawwa, each month we are going to post four art journalling prompts on our blogs, and each week we are going to complete one of those ourselves and share them on our instagram accounts (with a monthly wrap-up post for each of the four prompts and our own art on our blogs, new prompts for next month will be announced in the wrap up post). We want to make art and inspire and we want you to do the same, so we're inviting you to join us. You can complete as many pages as you want based on the prompts we post and share them with hashtag #ohjournaletc on instagram for everyone to see your art. 

The name comes from our instagram handles. Ohareeba & hawwaetc and we both do art journalling so we're mixing our love for creating art together.


January's been one of the most creative month. I created a lot, both on paper and in my mind (hint: I daydreamed a lot) And while planning the prompts for February, all I thought was HOW FUN IT IS CAN YOU BELIEVE IT IS GROWING SO MUCH AREEBA!?!!

So, here comes the newest prompts for February:
WEEK 1: FANDOM
Let the fangirl/fanboy inside you be free. Create something for your fave bands, tv shows, singers, imaginary people, let's celebrate our fandoms with art.

WEEK 2: CONSTELLATIONS

DO YOU EVEN NEED ANY REASON OR EXCUSE TO MAKE ART ABOUT STARS & SKY?

WEEK 3: BOOKISH
Make art for your fave fictional people, give them a reason to live in your art journal. Collect quotes and draw (I was secretly waiting for this topic to pop up in my life so that I can work on it)

WEEK 4: "WE'RE GLADIATORS, BUT WE'RE ONLY FIGHTING OURSELVES" (glory&gore by Lorde)
Turn Lorde's singing powers into art, that's an open challenge. Fight and make art.
Just a note, this song is my ultimate revenge song. 

AND

Here's the the glorious glorious glorious throwback. The prompts for January were 2016, blue, culture & an Eleanor and Park quote. Total 75 posts so far, instagram I love ya so much!


2016

Blue

Culture

"Art wasn't supposed to look nice, it was supposed to make you feel somthing." (Eleanor and Park)

And, here are some of my fave entries from the creatives on instagram.



 I LOVE Mahnoor's doodles so much. Her entry for 2016.
 And here comes Osama's glorious art journal for blue, I was most excited to see what he comes up with the hashtag series because I totally love his artwork & aesthetics.
 My most fave entry for culture by Saira, the beautiful Pakistani cultural art.
This simple and the cutest entry by Jules for art.

Join us for #ohjournaletc and remember you don't need to made perfect art journal pages, just make art. Live by this: art isn't supposed to look nice; it's suppose to make you feel something.

I also made a button if you want to use and show it off!
Not Your Type

Read Hawwa's post here.

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25 January 2016

Sharp objects - I fell in love with Gillian Flynn again

I'm a big big big fan of Gillian Flynn books. Her books have dark twisted plots with evil females and mysteries that get on my nerves. I like the villain-ish vibes of her work, nasty wrapped all around her words. And if you know me real well (or actually visited me About Me page) you are well known with the fact that her Gone Girl is one of my most favorite books ever. And I'm always quoting a few lines from the book.

I read Sharp Objects just a few days ago and I'm in awe. And it's time for another book review, a book that's quite near to my heart. Thx Gillian Flynn, I just fell in love with you again.

It's the story about a reporter Camille Preaker who had to go back to her hometown for a case. The case is about killings of two young girls. Searching for the case leads Camille back into her deeply disturbing dark past. As she tries to find more information bout the case, she discovers more bout her family and how twisted things actually are.

The main thing that makes me emotionally attached to this book is the character of Camille's mother, Adora. She's the polished evil mother kind who treats her daughters like objects, something to dress up and show off, something not human. Whenever I read something that Adora said to Camille, I realized how different relationships between a mother and daughter can be. I realized Adora is poison, Camille is poisoned. 

A line from the book:
“I just think some women aren't made to be mothers. And some women aren't made to be daughters.”

 I'm too attached to my amma, she is my best friend and mainly my everything. When I was reading this book, I actually kept reminding myself how blessed I'm with a mother who brought me up into a bright young person and never ever disappointed in being the best human in my life. I know you don't really read my blog but if you're reading, thanks amma

Above was the emotionally attachment part.

Camille amazed me. The misbehaving kid from a big rich family and ends up trash. The book title comes from her addiction with sharp objects, Camille cuts. She writes words on her skin. Always afraid she might lose them. This hit me hard and it felt like I belonged to the fear that she had, I'm always scared that my words will be lost somewhere if I don't pay attention, if I don't save them, if I forget to take my notebook everywhere.

“I am a cutter, you see. Also a snipper, a slicer, a carver, a jabber. I am a very special case. I have a purpose. My skin, you see, screams. It's covered with words - cook, cupcake, kitty, curls - as if a knife-wielding first-grader learned to write on my flesh. I sometimes, but only sometimes, laugh. Getting out of the bath and seeing, out of the corner of my eye, down the side of a leg: babydoll. Pull on a sweater and, in a flash of my wrist: harmful. Why these words? Thousands of hours of therapy have yielded a few ideas from the good doctors. They are often feminine, in a Dick and Jane, pink vs. puppy dog tails sort of way. Or they're flat-out negative. Number of synonyms for anxious carved in my skin: eleven. The one thing I know for sure is that at the time, it was crucial to see these letters on me, and not just see them, but feel them."

I love this book, not because it's a good mystery and all my guesses for the murderer were wrong but because this book made me feel about things I long ago forgot they matter. This book more includes rich rich rich people problems, sisters bonding, drinking problems and high school drama ft dark creatures aka 13 years old troubled girls. I'm telling you, it's a v interesting read.

Also, another line I like that's so powerful:
“See, there I am. I told you I lived. I told you I was.”

Also I've just finished reading another Gillian Flynn book yesterday (Dark Places) and will be writing a review for it soon. I have a feeling I'll pass this year's book reading challenge (I HOPE I HOPE) which I've set on 50.

Have you read any Gillian Flynn book? Or this book? 

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